HogfaninTexas

I hate using the term addict, but to be honest, that's what I am. I've been on pain killers for 6 years now (since Jan. '02) from 7 back surgeries that I've had. I've been to rehab, and that worked for a little while, not long-term. I was staying away from the pills from the time I exited rehab (Feb. '07) until my first cousin, whom I was very close to passed on this past Summer. She was only 23, and it really did me in... still does. All I have to do is come up with the smallest of excuses to take some pills. It's pathetic. I need to be in the Word and pray more often than i do, then I know my struggle with them would be less intense. I'm sorry if this is a bore to you, I just need to vent. Anyway, I do have reason to take them most of the time, because I suffer with chronic pain. However, when I'm not in pain I still take them. If my prescription runs out, I'll just buy them off the street, sad huh? If you are a believer, I would greatly appreciate your prayers.. if not, some kind of encouragement would be wonderful. Thanks for letting me vent. Peace and God bless.